{my camera and me}

hello there!!  so i did it, i hopped in my car and drove where ever the wind happened to blow me.  first of all another tidbit about myself...i'm a huuuuuuuuge history junkie - have been since i was a young tike.  i love anything with a story.  i can remember crawling up on my grandfather's lap as a youngin' and listening to stories about the war.  that's what sucked me in and i've been hooked ever since. 

i was driving along on this gorgeous, yes the sun was out (shocker), day and passed this reeeeally old cemetery!!  now, something else about myself...i love old cemeteries...but, only during the day.  they creep me out at night. :(  there was something so peaceful and serene about it (i know, its a cemetery!).  i found headstones that were over 200 years old and i find myself imagining what the world and these people were like then.  were they like me?  what was their situation like?  did they love?  were they loved??  this stuff just fascinates me.  other photographers remind me to shoot for myself too, so my goal is to try and get out and shoot stuff that inspires me as often as possible.  i'm gonna make a solid effort to do so and so should anyone reading this.  it may not be photography but try and do something for yourself once in awhile...plus it keeps ya sane!!  have a good tuesday! ;-)

*hugs*

my goal this week is to out and just shoot random stuff, just me and my camera...whatever inspires me and wherever my car decides to take me.  i have no current idea what i want to shoot, but i figure thats the exciting part of my adventure.  life throws curveballs which definitely makes life that much more interesting.  so, we shall see where i end up..

Obstacles and Fear

yada, yada yada....obstacles and fear...two of my least favorite things to talk about.  however, it is a new year and dangit i need to just get over that crap.  i know this is a photography blog but there are obstacles in this profession that scare the hell out of me.  yeah, totally!!!  so, regardless if you wanna or not i'm draggin' this blog and whomever reads this along with me on this so-called journey.  truth...technology freaks me out...but i figured that going at it one day at a time is better than taking on the whole enchilada!!  in a year or so i have purchased a new camera, a new computer, a program that is so overwhelming and a new found respect for the patience that i soooo lack!!  all of these obstacles have forced me to slow down a bit although i am a product of the "i want it now" generation.  but, slowing down a bit with all this new techo stuff is actually teaching me patience.  who knew??  now i am by no means saying i have conquered any of this.  i am taking it one day at a time.  photoshop wins more battles than i wish to speak about but i will get the hang of it soon...i hope!  my macbook pro and i are finally figuring out our relationship status.  my nikon and i are a work in progress.  thats life.  and apart from it all, its a challenge and one that i welcome.  :)

Inspiration..

alright, on a personal note...
as i've been on this journey to figure out my purpose in life, i have been forced to ask myself those difficult questions such as..."What makes ME happy?" or "What inspires ME?"  i, for one, rarely ask myself those questions but decided to make a resolution to ask them of myself more often.  crazy??  probably.  i know i'm a month into this new year but better late than never!  so, here's what i know makes me happy...the laughter of my kiddos, seeing the look on my son's face when he gets a new video game and then listening to the commentary as he's playing that new game, my daughter rock out to whatever song is playing in the car, the amazing feeling i get when i capture that perfect moment in time...photography..i love it!! now, on to inspiration..i find myself inspired by a lot of different things.  and, i've learned, whatever inspires me today may not always give me the same inspiration tomorrow.  i find myself being inspired by the simplest and silliest of things too.  my friend who so boldly makes certain that my feet are firmly planted on the ground, my husband who has a dream and chases it so ambitiously, the perseverence of a photog friend to keep at it and never give up...to name a few.  i have had plenty ups and downs in my life and i figure that there has to be some sort of lesson in it all.  i believe in signs and i know that if i give my all in the areas that matter most in my life...everything falls into place.  i consider myself lucky.  i have great friends, a great family, happiness and inspiration.  so, on the flip side...if anyone reads this...what makes you happy??  what inspires you?